Sunday, March 30, 2025

Biblical Evils

 Actions such as sex slavery and the murder of children are undeniably evil, yet they were often commonplace in ancient civilizations. It should not come as a surprise to find such actions depicted in the Bible, sometimes appearing to be divinely sanctioned. However, interpreting these actions as 'evil' requires context. Many biblical stories were written to convey moral lessons, allegories, or theological principles rather than to serve as literal historical accounts. This does not mean the events or people described are not real; rather, it is in the symbolism of their presentation that we encounter God.

If these stories are taken purely literally, it would imply that both the God sanctioning such acts and the people committing them are evil. For instance, the story of Abraham and Isaac is often understood as a test of faith, not as an endorsement of child sacrifice. If interpreted literally, an all-knowing God demanding a worshiper to attempt something immoral would render both the worshiper and God morally compromised.

For those who, like me, are not biblical literalists, these stories are better viewed as symbolic rather than factual. This perspective allows us to focus on the lessons they aim to teach rather than the actions themselves. It also enables a nuanced critique of the text without dismissing it entirely—an approach that, I believe, should be the hallmark of any thoughtful Christian. Come join the conversation: (youtubelink

Friday, March 14, 2025

The Heresy of Celibacy

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One of the greatest abuses in Church history is found in the heresy that celibacy is more spiritual than marriage. The foundation of this abuse is based on the teaching of the apostle Paul who taught that celibacy is the preferred state for serving Christ. His point was that someone who is married can’t empty out their bank accounts and move around the world to serve the Lord. His teaching had to do with utility, and it had nothing to do with spirituality. Unfortunately, his teaching continues to be distorted.

One of the greatest examples of distortion in Church history is found in how the Fathers understood the Song of Solomon. The Song of Solomon is a whole book dedicated to the sacred mystery of human love. Instead of seeing it this way, the fathers would allegorize it as a love story about Christ and his church. When they saw it for what it was, they would get in trouble. Theodore of Mopsuestia knew what this book was about, human love, and wanted to get it removed from the canon for this reason. His views were condemned. To see this book as a reflection of human love was condemned.  Married life was just not a spiritual state in the History of the Church, only celibacy.

I could go on with examples, but the fruit of this bigotry has been enshrined in the culture of the modern Catholic Church. For example, I just watched a female Byzantine Catholic monastic go on a Catholic show and tell people she gave up natural marriage for the supernatural call to celibacy. The Eastern Catholic churches have always called marriage a holy mystery, it’s a sacrament, so this was surprising to hear. Her words were an obvious sign of being indoctrinated to a view that thrives in Catholic culture.  

The traditional view of the Eastern Church on marriage is that it is supernatural. The man and the woman receive power to divinize their love through the Holy Mystery. The love is something that has the potential to last forever since it becomes God’s love. This is why remarriage is discouraged. This is why married men that are being ordained make a vow not to remarry after their spouse dies. It’s to honor that divinzed love. This is also why in the traditional Byzantine marriage rite there is no phrase “to death do us part”. The love becomes divine, eternal, this is the purpose of the sacramental reality.

What is sad is that in the culture of the Catholic Church the sacramental reality of Marriage just becomes a form of divine help.  It has no lasting value and consequently it becomes the lesser spiritual path. For this reason, it is for the most part reduced to just a divine contract that ends in death. Obviously, the inclusion of “to death do us part” is based on this. A phrase that oddly enough originates in the protestant tradition.  You won’t find it in the Catholic Church before the advent of Protestantism.

What Catholics need to learn is that the power behind celibacy and marriage, what makes them spiritual paths, is the same. It's our sexuality that makes these paths spiritual. Our sexuality is sacred and how we use it makes our calling spiritual. Basically, Chastity for the monk and the married person is our power. The monk uses their chastity to reveal the angelic state of the coming kingdom through celibacy. In contrast, the married practice chastity so that their sexual act can become divinized love.  The love in the sexual union is ultimately a revelation of God’s love in the world. Whenever this truth is devalued by someone in favor of celibacy, they are  following a false teaching.

Saturday, March 1, 2025

The Experience of God

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 I’m going to begin with an experience. Experience is going to be actually my whole theme. I believe it’s an experience that my tradition can offer to everyone no matter who you are, no matter what church you go to, or no matter where you are at in life. Like many people there was a time in my life when I thought I was doing everything right in the world and at the time I thought that there was no more I could do. I was a good person, a believer in the teachings of Christ, and I was waiting, like most people, to get out of here. I was waiting for heaven. The Church for the most part was just my pit stop on the road to the heavenly destination, where I was waiting it out to one day meet God in the afterlife. This is how things were until: I met God here!

There was this place I accidentally wandered into. It was during my honeymoon many years ago. It was the shrine of St. Photius in St. Augustine Florida. You can find it on the main strip where all the tourists are doing their shopping. I was curious to see this Orthodox shrine. I had never seen one before. I wandered in just expecting to see some church art. I had heard of how beautiful Eastern churches were with their iconography. That is not what happened. Instead of art I saw God. I saw God in the beauty. It was unexpected. It was like I accidentally went through a door that I was not supped to go through. I was immediately overcome with emotion and in that experience, there was a message from God. There was no voice, I could feel the words, as if they were imprinted on my soul. The message was: “There is so much more of God to be found in this life”.

You would think that this message would be obvious. this message that there is so much more of God to be found in this life. For me it was not, and I know this is the case for many people because of how we have been trained to understand God. We have been trained to perceive God from a distance. God is always above and beyond and maybe one day we will see him, in the next life.  We keep God far away because that’s the way it’s always been. God is not here, God is in heaven. This understanding began to be unraveled for me as I took the next step in wanting more of the Eastern church, it led me to my church and to my first experience of the Divine Liturgy where I began to see heaven on earth for the first time, to see that God was here.

There was another person who had a similar observation. Some of you already know this story.  There was this Grand Prince of the ancient Rus named Valdimir. He had been a pagan his whole life and was unsatisfied with the religion. He wanted a religion of substance for his people. As the story goes, he sent emissaries to many of the great religions of the world and the one that came back from Eastern churches, who experienced a Byzantine liturgy, had told him that they did not know if they were in heaven or on earth during their worship. His response was: “I want that religion for my people”. This is a common experience for people who come to one of our churches. In that, I inquired why this experience happens and I was told by the priest that Christ is fully present in all our liturgies.

You would think that this would be another obvious fact. Jesus even says in the scripture, “where 2 or 3 gather” I am there. Why was I not seeing the obvious. It was easy to believe that God was in the priest or the preacher, or in the tabernacle but not right here. In the case of the liturgy, it could not be denied. God was here. There was an experience of the heavenly and it was an experience that I wanted more of and all the time. As that original experience that I had revealed, if there was so much more, that so much more can be something that I could have access to all of the time and not just in this place, and for this reason I began a study Byzantine Spirituality, specifically in the books known as the Philokalia, which for us Byzantines is referred often as our 2nd bible, for it is where we find the spiritual instruction of how we can live the mysteries that we find in the bible. It is also the book that I will using for this discussion.

It took me many years to understand the content of the Philokalia and the reason for this was that I was approaching it with the wrong mindset. I still carried with me the mindset that I had brought with me into the Eastern Church. This is a mindset that I believe that many Christians have. We are trained to believe from the cultural experience of our religion, not the authentic teaching, that God or heaven is something we are to only experience later after we die.  For example, we are taught that our behavior, how we think, how we act, or how we live impacts only the future and not right now. The problem with believing this way is that whatever spirituality that we practice only bears fruit in the life to come and not right now.  

The fathers in the Philokalia were contradicting this kind of spirituality that I had. The spirituality that leads us to find heaven in some other place. What they were teaching was that God was not interested in waiting for you to die in order to have heaven and see him. According to them, God is someone who can be seen now, when learn to make our lives heaven.  The Spirituality that they were offering, which is the spirituality of the Eastern church, is one where we learn to transform what we are so we can begin to experience God right now, not tomorrow, not after we die, and not in some other place.

Going back to my original experience at the shrine. That experience was telling me that God can be found here. When I came to my first divine liturgy that experience was telling me that. What the Philokalia teaches is that this kind of experience of the liturgy is something that to be had all of the time.  In the words of one of the fathers in the Philokalia, St. Symeon the New Theologian, we do not have to wait until the second coming of Christ to see the Kingdom of God. We can see it right now when we learn to experience the uncreated light of God in Creation. He goes on to say that he who sees this light is living the Second Coming of Christ right now.  His point is that we don’t have to wait to go to heaven, we can begin to live in heaven right now.

Obviously, many of you might be wondering what is this light that he is talking about. In explaining this I’m going to take you on a little theological journey that will give you a context for what he says. This journey begins with how we understand God in our Eastern theology. I will begin by sharing something very familiar to us in terms of light, our sun. We know that it’s impossible for us to touch the sun but it’s not impossible for us to experience the light of the sun. The light of the sun is the basis for how we exist in this world, but we know if we were to go into that sun we would be destroyed. Like the sun, there will always be something of God that will be inaccessible to us and unknowable.  We call this God’s essence. On the other hand, there is something of God that we can experience, which we call God’s energies, just like how the light of the sun contributes to our existence, these energies, are the basis for all existence and our experience of  God. St. Symeon calls this the uncreate light, it is through this light that way can know and experience God right now.  

Ok, this might seem like a logical explanation about this light, so how can we see it or why can’t we see it? In this I will be continuing your theological journey going all the way back to the beginning. In the beginning God said, let there be light. This first day as it is called in scripture is where God united himself to creation. This day is the foundation for all things. It’s not a 24hr period, it’s the foundation for all that exists past present and future. It’s a day that does not cease. All the other days of creation proceed out of that day. Think of the Gensis account as God building a house upon a foundation. God being the foundation, the foundation is the first day, the uncreated light that sustains all things.

One of the things that God built upon this foundation was a garden, Eden. The garden was the filter by which this light came into the world, to our ancestors. We know it was there that they encountered God. They were able to see God through this garden experience. There were able to see God naturally through creation and not only see they were given the option to partake of God through creation. They were given the option to have this light within them in a direct way which would give them immortality. They were given the option to eat from a tree that could give them eternal life.

Think about this for a moment. The created world, the beauty of a garden, was the filter in how our ancestors saw God and it was through a created thing in that garden, a tree in which they would receive immortality. We are talking about a place on this Earth. The creation was the natural way that our ancestors were to experience what we call heaven.  A place right here. No other place. As we know God never destroyed Eden after our ancestors fell. That place is still here.  There is place right now in which we can see God and receive immortality by eating from a tree.

Well now you might ask, how do we get there? To get there we have to learn about the vocation that our ancestors received from God. The scripture tells us that God told them to subdue the earth. This often goes into many self-serving interpretations that make the Earth something we use and abuse at our leisure. However, the spiritual understanding is that our ancestors were given the task to complete and perfect the Earth.  In one way they were to extend the boundaries of the Garden of Eden. They were to make the whole Earth Eden, a place where God can be seen and they were to make every tree a tree of life, a tree that gives them immortality.

Now my question for all of you is: When did God change his mind about the Earth? When did the Earth become a place that we escape from in order to go to a place that we call Heaven? It seems obvious to me that the Earth is to become heaven and if it can become heaven, it can become the place that we can encounter God. Now this is what St. Symeon was trying to teach us in the Philokalia when he says that we don’t have to wait until the end to experience God, we need to learn to experience God right now in and through creation.

Again, some of you might say, why can’t we? He makes it sound easy. This is where the understanding of salvation comes in. Salvation as it is understood in the Philokalia is the process of returning back to the experience of God in creation. Salvation is not getting your ticket to go to another place. That’s how it’s often marketed to us. The whole point of a resurrection from the dead, as we say in our creed, is to come back here. To be able to experience God right here is why we are being saved and that salvation begins right now for us, in this place.

Yes, I said in this place. One of things that is often lost in how we understanding our salvation, which is essential for learning how to experience God, is that God is also saving the world.  We have heard this before in the scripture: “For God so loved the world”, “Preach to all Creation” or “The whole creation groans for salvation”. We live in a fallen world. The world was designed for us to experience God in and when our ancestors fell into sin, they brough the world with them. The world cannot be what it was meant to be without them. As a result, God’s plan for salvation does not just involve us but also the world that we live in.

We cannot experience God apart from the Earth. This is how we were created. As I mentioned, Eden was the place where we see God and it’s from a tree that we are to receive immortality.  For this reason, salvation must begin for us from the Earth, as God intended it to be. We are often never instructed in this way. We think it’s just our belief in an idea and we call that idea faith. However, if you are a Catholic salvation for you began from the Earth. Before, I prove this I want to turn your attention to what happened to Jesus on the Cross. On the cross Jesus was pierced and out from his side blood and water flowed out. In every Divine Liturgy this event is repeated. Hot Water is poured into the chalice before we receive communion. During communion we give you that blood and water, which comes from the side of Christ.

The chalice we use, to give you that blood and water mixture, is a reproduction of the greater chalice, which legend calls the Holy Grail. The Holy Grail was the first chalice according to legend to receive that blood and water that flowed from our Lord’s side. Well, that first chalice is not a golden cup like the one we might use in our Liturgy, it was the Earth. The Earth is the Holy Grail and all that it is connected to. The World has become for us once again the place we can see God and it has become the place where we can once again eat from the tree of life because of the precious and life-giving blood of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

It’s not a coincidence that all the feasts in the Eastern church are based on the agricultural cycle.  It’s because the world is to be the natural means by how we encounter God. Those cycles of the moon, celestial alignments, the solstice, and equinox that we base our feats on determine how we can participate in our salvation. They are the foundation for how we can enter into the mystery. They are the parts of garden where we can see God.  There is a reason why in the Eastern church Ascension Thursday should never become Ascension Sunday. There is a reason why we should not move a feast day for the convince of the working class. It’s because we are being saved through the natural world.

If you are still not convinced, ask yourself why the scripture says that baptism saves you. Some Christians are convinced that it’s just a symbol. They believe it’s a symbol of their faith in Jesus Christ. They believe it’s a symbol for being able to have something later on, when they get to heaven and be with Jesus. In the Eastern church the waters of baptism make us a new creation. Water gives us something of God. This is why we call the baptized the newly illuminated servants. The water gives the baptized the ability to see God once again. The right to experience him. Our ancestors lost that vision when they fell. The world became dark. It was no longer the place to see God. God restores our vision once again by using the natural world, the world that He sanctified by the blood of Christ.

One of the things we immediately do after someone is baptized is that we use oil to seal them in the Holy Spirit. We call it chrizmation. In the Western churches it’s called confirmation.  Here again people are often trained to believe that the oil is just a symbol of the Holy Spirit. God did not make the world to be a symbol. As one of our Eastern Fathers said, St. John of Damascus, “the whole earth is the living Icon of the face of God”. It’s the place where we experience God. God uses oil, not our faith, not our belief in a symbol, to give us the Holy spirit. The oil is the natural means for us to experience God. Most people are baptized and chrizamted as infants, there is no way for a baby to understand anything. This is sometimes a belief for the reasons for God parents. It is not the responsibility of a God parent to help you believe in anything, it’s their responsibility to show you by example how you too can experience what you have been given.

The next step in the baptism is receiving the Holy Eucharist. I’m sure you know where I am going with this. In the Eucharist, the bread and the wine, become what bread and wine are meant to be. A way to experience God. As I mentioned earlier, the vocation of our ancestors was to make the world Eden and every tree a tree of life. God’s original plan for eating was not just way for us to live another day. Eating was a way for us to experience God and eating from the tree of life would have given us the chance to live forever. This understanding about food as way to experience God has been lost to us. We pray over our food, but we don’t know why. We think it’s just a way of being nice to God. The act of Eating, not just the prayer before it, needs to become a prayer. That’s how food should be eaten. Food is a way for us to experience God. I guarantee if we practice and teach others to eat like that, we would be much healthier people.

Going back to what I was saying about the Eucharist and why we get it right after we are chrizmated. In baptism we are illuminated with the ability to see God here, through chrizamtion, we are empowered with the experience God through creation, and now through the Eucharist we receive the right to Eat from the Tree of life. The eucharist is the fruit of the tree of life. It why we are going to be resurrected after we die, Its why we are going to live forever. The cross is the new tree of life that God planted in the world and this understanding is the basis of what you will find in every Divine Liturgy.

The Divine Liturgy has been called many things. Heaven on Earth as the emissaries of St. Vladimir proclaimed. How Christ is fully present as that priest told me. Sometimes it’s called a sacred place. I’m sure you might have heard many things.  A precise description is to understand the Divine Liturgy as Eden. Eden is heaven on Earth, Eden is how God is fully present, and Eden is a sacred place. During the worship the Church becomes Eden that place where is God can be seen and experienced. The Church, as  Eden, also becomes the place where we can eat from the tree of life. The Eucharist is the fruit of the tree, the source of our immortality. Its how God communicates to us everything that God is. The Eucharist is the source of that uncreated light that I was speaking of and as we receive it , our bodies become the source of the light.

This understanding is why you will not find Eucharistic Adoration in the Eastern church. There is nothing wrong with doing that. That’s a way that people express their love for Christ. It’s how they adore him. I like to think of the idea of Eucharistic adoration in the Eastern church as Christ adoring us.  It’s not his intention to make a home in the bread and wine. He wants to make a home in us. The fruit of tree of life is meant for us to eat so we can have everything of God, it is not meant to remain as fruit. We are the destination of God’s affection. We are the ones being glorified. God does not want to remain in the tabernacle. He wants us to be his tabernacle. This understanding is an essential aspect of Eastern spirituality.  

When we eat from the tree of lie, when we receive the Eucharist, we have everything of God in us. The goal is to learn to adore God within. We know how to adore what’s outside. I have been to Eucharistic adoration in the Latin church, it’s not complicated to do this. However, many of us have no idea how to adore what is within us. Going back to the question how do we see the uncreated light saint Symeon makes it sound easy.  This is the purpose of the Philokalia.  As I mentioned earlier it’s our 2nd bible. With it you will find a spirituality that is called Hesychasm. Hesychasm means the pursuit of stillness. In this matter, it’s the stillness necessary for us to adore and to experience what we have been given.

Hesychasm is the foundational spirituality of the Byzantine rite. What’s unfortunate is that this spirituality has been lost to modern Eastern parishioners. We know about things that come from this spirituality. Like the prayer rope, the Philokalia, and the Jesus Prayer. However, many are not aware that whole liturgy and how it was developed was based on this spirituality. We get a glimpse of this in our Tone 8 resurrection troparion, where we sing “you accepted burial for 3 days to free us from our passions”. Some Eastern churches did not think that this made any sense, so they changed it. I’m sure they thought: What does Christ’s burial have to do with freeing us from our passions? What are passions? This was language taken right out of the Philokalia and because it did not make sense they changed the word to sufferings.

To give you further context for this spirituality that leads to the experience of God I want to take you back to its origins. Hesychasm was a spiritual movement that began in the monasteries of Mt. Athos. This movement wanted to reform the liturgy of the Byzantine rite. This reformation took place around the 1300s. The ideal in this liturgical reformation was that the liturgy must lead to Hesychia, which means stillness, that meeting place between us and God. That stillness that is necessary for experiencing God. As we are going to see there is a reason why going to some of our liturgies is like going to a gym. This has to do with the spirituality of Hesychasm as I will be discussing.

As I mentioned, going to some of our liturgies is like going to a gym.  This is based on the understanding that the body prays. Not just the mind and because the body prays , it too needs to be healed , it too needs to be transformed. For the fathers of our tradition, it just as important that your body experiences Hesychia as your mind. We are not used to thinking of our body in this way. The only other religion in the world that teaches to pray with their body is Hinduism. That is what yoga is. A prayer done with the body. As they teach in yoga the posture of the body is a way to experience God. This is the logic behind why we stand, bow, or do our metonia. This is why you feel like you have been to an aerobics class when you leave our worship. These aerobics are the way we are healed, the healing necessary for experiencing God.

The body prays. Going back to what I was saying  about experiencing God in creation, the body is the natural instrument for encountering God here. These eyes were designed to see God here. We have the same eyes that our ancestors had. They saw God in the garden. That’s what our senses were made for:::they were made to encounter God with. This is why are liturgies involve all your senses. Seeing your body in this way sometimes makes people uncomfortable and if it does for you consider what the apostle Paul said, he said your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.  This was no metaphor. Your body was made to encounter God with. That’s why temples are made, they are places to experience God in.

Now that I have your attention on your body being the place to experience God, we can look at the question of why it’s difficult to worship. Why the posture. Why it feels like a gym. Why is this so and how does it heal.  To do that I want to look at a prayer of the body that we are familiar with and have done without maybe ever seeing it as body prayer. I am talking about Fasting. Sometimes we have fasted just because our churches do it and not know why. Fasting in the spirituality of Hesychasm is very specific, and it has to do with that mysterious word that we heard earlier, the passions and in order to understand that word I will need to take us back to the garden of Eden again.  

In the garden our ancestors before they sinned were in perfect harmony with that vision of God in creation. Their minds were illuminated with that vision of God. When they lost that vision their mind was broken. It was darkened. They were to find their satisfaction in that vision alone and not being able to do it they tried to find satisfaction in everything else. This is what we are dealing with right now. Even though we have given back this access to this vision of God through the holy mysteries God has given us the task of healing our own humanity. He did the hard work but wants us to do the application. This as we are going to see is what fasting is. It’s a form of healing and what we are being healed from is what we call the passions and one of the greatest passions can be found in our stomach.

Remember how I said that eating should be a form of prayer. A way to connect to God. That was how eating was before the fall. Now, for the most part our eating dominates how we live. All our troubles began for us in how we ate. Our food now becomes  our lord and we its slaves. Some days it’s all we think about. Being hungry is not wrong. That is natural but letting our desire food dominate our whole day and behavior is.  How many of you have sat in church and could not wait to get out to get to lunch. There is no need to pious about this. It’s been every one of us. This is a passion for which Christ was buried for 3 days. He wants to this power to die with him in that tomb, this is what fasting does, and when it dies we can see God in us. As long as that power is there it obstructs our vision of God. You can’t be committed to God and Burker king. He wants to be the King.  

Fasting has many uses but its greatest in the Eastern church is to put our passions to rest so that we can experience God in the body and for you people who have fasted for some length of time you can testify that your experience of God was different when you fasted. This is also the point of our feasts. The feast is enjoying now the food you eat with God in celebration. Feasting is not a return to what fuels our passion. If you fasted from chocolate for forty days just to gorge yourself on Hershey bars you have missed the point. Food is not the bad guy, its how we eat that is bad.

As some of you know fasting is just as much work for body as it is for the mind. Our stomach says eat and the mind says ok lets do it and it begins the journey to appease the stomach. The reverse is just as true. We start thinking about our favorite food and stomach says ok I will drive.  There is a harmony with our mind and body that goes along with our struggle against the passions. This is where I’m going to diverge somewhat from focusing on encountering God with the body and talk about the mind.

When I use that word, mind, I am not talking about the ability to reason. I’m not talking about a brain. The brain is part of the body. According to the fathers, the mind is the eye of the soul.  The mind is what drives this body. The mind is what was darkened after our ancestors sinned. The mind is what needs to purified in order to see God in creation. To behold God is the natural state.  If your mind is not pure the body cannot experience God properly in the world.

According to the fathers in the Philokalia the mind is malfunctioning. The energy that needs to focus on God is scattered after other things. The example that I like to give in this comes from my own experience. The Wi-Fi router in my home is often subject to a dozen devices at once. I have 8 children so this has always been an issue. As you might have guessed this causes problems for the device that you want to use because it is not connecting properly. This is how it is with the mind. The energy needed to experience God with the mind is scattered to other things, which are also referred to as passions.  

One of the greatest passions of the mind, and this will surprise some of you, is daydreaming. We are taught this is a good thing and healthy but for the fathers it is not. It’s not healthy because it takes our mind to some other place rather towards God. To demonstrate this truth, I will tell people to go sit down in silence to pray. Try to remain in that moment with God. The first thing that will happen is that you will become bored or unsatisfied. Your mind will then take you on a trip to some other place. It can even be in a religious place. You might be sitting down with Jesus and the apostles but the truth is you will not be sitting with God. What you have done is created your own version of God with your day dreaming, an idol, a God that wont make you bored. The true God you will leave behind because you were not willing to face that suffering.

There is another way to think of our daydreaming and how unhealthy it is for us. Think about what happens when you are driving an automobile while doing it. I’m sure all of you that drive can recall a time when you have driven a few miles down the road and realize, “how do I get here”. You were daydreaming. Day dreaming is the number one cause for auto accidents, and I know this because my wife works with auto insurance.  When we drive we need to learn to practice not to day dream and to keep turning our mind back to the road. This as we are going to see is the same principle for how we are taught to pray in the Eastern Church, bringing our mind back to God in the silence, that Hesychia, and Fathers call this practice Nepsis, or Watchfulness.

Watchfulness is kind of like fasting for the mind. What you are doing is paying attention to what is going on in it. It doesn’t matter if it’s a good thought or a bad one. St. Evargious the Solitary said that we need to make our intellects deaf and dumb during prayer so that we can pray. This might sound strange. Many people are not taught to pray this way. What he is talking about is drawing those energies of the mind back to the source. As I was saying earlier, we have been given all of God in the holy mysteries. Jesus is fully within us. There is no need to make up ideas or images about him in order to reach him. We have him.

You will find when you begin to do this there will be great difficulty. One of the tools used for this difficulty is what is known as the Jesus Prayer. Many people know about this prayer as just a prayer. For the spirituality of the Eastern church it’s more like a surgical tool. It’s used as a counter or a replacement for the mind wanting to focus on other things. The prayer is used to draw your mind back to the source. This is why we do it with repetition and why we have what is called a prayer rope. In saying the prayer, we make the mind, and the body focus on what we have within us. In doing so we began to heal the mind and body.

Now I just mentioned that the prayer uses mind and body. Circling back to the idea of bodily prayer there is an understanding that the body and the mind must enter a state of Hesychia together in order to experience God properly.  This is obviously the purpose of the Jesus prayer and prayer rope, and also the postures in the liturgy, but also extends to the very act of breathing and other postures. Typically, people are taught when they are praying the prayer to inhale “lord Jesus Christ son of god” exhale have mercy on my a sinner” You will also find the in the Philokalia various postures for prayer. The whole body is to participate because the whole body was meant to experience God.

You will find that there is a great deal of diversity on how this is carried out in the Eastern Church but the principle is the same, which is to achieve Hesychia, to be healed. In this regard, I have found St. Nikodemos as having the most effective teaching. His method is not for everyone, especially if you have health issues. What he said was to go find a quite place sit erect with head bowed and to inhale and hold your breath in while saying the prayer(which is a few seconds), “lord Jesus Christ son of God have mercy” and then to exhale. He said as you inhale say the prayer with will all your mental might. He uses the example of someone drowning in the ocean. Someone who is drowning and sees a boat far a way says “help” with all their energy. He says to do this and don’t exhale until you know you’re heard. Doing this for about 20min should jump start your mind to where it needs to be. I have used this method of healing when my mind has been overwhelmed with other things and it brought it right back to God.

What he said might seem extreme and not for everyone. You will find a great deal of diversity of practices in Hesychasm and with that I tell people that much of what you will find won’t be for you. When approaching the spiritual texts like the Philokalia you have to see them as medical journals. In a medical journal you might find various doctors talking about the same sickness and how to heal it. Some of what those doctors say might not work for you but others will. The idea is healing. In this case healing the body and mind so that it can experience God in the world.

Healing is the  propose behind all the spirituality of the Eastern Church. We need to be healed in order to experience God. Our Father St. John Chrysostom emphasized this when he told us that the Church is to be a hospital. Hospitals heal people in the present. What a hospital does not do is prepare people to die. That would be a hospice. That saint never made any indication that the church was to be a place to prepare us for the next life. A church needs to help us experience God right now. This is what the Eastern Church does, this what her spirituality of Hesychasm accomplished for us.

God wants to be with us right now. Not tomorrow and not in some other place. We might go to be with God after we die but he doesn’t want to wait for the end for you to experience him. This is why he sent Jesus Christ into the world. Jesus gives us the power to experience God right now. This why the Christian religion is different from every other. In just about every other religion God is met at the end of the story. Jesus gives us the power to meet God right now. He restores to us access to God through creation. He restores to us what is natural through the Church. He gives us back the experience of God.

In closing I want to draw us to the words of St. Theophane the Recluse that has been repeated amongst many of the fathers. he said, “ Learn to make the very air you breath an experience of God”. Some have considered this as metaphor, but the spiritualty of the Eastern church makes this a very real statement. In the scripture there are 2 instances of this. There is when God breathed in man the breath of life and when Jesus breathed on the apostles and said receive the Spirit. We do this also in baptism. If you were to go to one of our baptisms the priest breathes on the person giving them the spirit. Breathing was the natural way to receive the Spirit and through the spiritually of the Eastern church our every breath can become for an experience of God. 

Monday, January 13, 2025

More Poems by The Deacon

  More Poems by The Deacon  and my translation of a poem by St. Theophan the Recluse  

find them all narrated here: (YouTube link)                                                           

                                                                            

                                                           Descend

by Theophan the Recluse

(My translation of the Russian)

Descend from your mind into your heart, For now, your thoughts of God are worlds apart. God Himself seems to linger outside, Leaving your prayers and practices denied. While you remain in your mind's domain, Thoughts will whirl like snowflakes in winter's reign, Or swarms of mosquitoes in summer's heat, Until your heart and mind finally meet.

 

The Fallen Ones

By Jacobs stair they did come,

Passing by old Inanna’s heel.

Seizing Enlil’s broken cape,

Looking upon sacred space.

 

In eyes of green they did see,

A destiny of silted beings.

For in them you did confide,

The only place you now hide.

 

Shouting vows of contention,

A prince they did crown.

By shadows they now retreat,

Into chains forever defiant.

 

Meeting Eve

Down in the garden's grace, My heart began to race. Your eyes like lilies beckoning, Your scent of roses echoing.

Draped in Queen Anne’s lace, A tulip’s vow you did trace. Upon your hand, a silver vine, From your lips, the balm of lupine.

We embraced like daisies' chorus, The asters danced before us. The lilacs lay whispering, of love like Hostas glistening.

Garden Wedding

In the shadow of thy tower,

A garden wedding begins.

The great oak bears witness,

As tortoise and squirrel play.

 

The bells now are ringing,

Rose petals tossed by wind.

Day gives way to night,

As true love never ends.

Tuesday, December 31, 2024

More Theological Poetry

 

More theological poetry by the mysterious person known as the deacon. Also on the YouTube list, I have added a reading of William Blake and Vladimir Solovyov. You can listen to the reading here for all the poetry: (link to YouTube)


The Patriarch

Near the uneven hill,

Where giants now sleep,

An altar made of stone.

 

Among the ancient oaks

Beneath that Hunter's belt,

There the promise made.

 

The Patriarch proclaims,

By the Ancient of days,

We will never be forgotten.

 

 

In the Heart

So much more you say,

So much more to this life.

At once I am dumbfounded,

Am I not standing upon the mountain?

 

Winds come lay my foundation bare,

My sweet Earth open now the deep,

Oh, great fires come claim your timber!

Still, you are in none of these?

 

“Here I am” you whisper gently,

Not here, not there, or beyond me.

Not in the winds, the earth, or the flame

For its in the heart where you call to me.

 

The Cry

By the waters of Babylon I laid weeping,

Day and night crying out in misery.

No one to care, no one to comfort me.

Alone, abandoned, without solace.

 

The void began to bubble forth, it came forth to claim me.

Crying out with Trepidation I said, “please do not forsake me”

and again in great dread, “Am I not the work of your hands”

 

Then over the waters over that great ethereal space.

With mirth and jubilation you cried out, “My son I will never forsake you”

And again in exaltation, “my hands and work you must now be”

 

 

 

 

 

That Hidden Place

You say not to go to the heavens, nor to go under the earth.

For it is within you that you say I must be found.

By what great mystery do you make me your habitation?

You are greater than all things, above and beyond everything.

 

Does the bear say to the mouse I will sleep in your den?

When does the sparrow make room for the eagle to lodge?

Show me when a lion who goes to feast with the rooster!

 

In that inner door is where you stand and knock,

I hear your voice calling for me to come in,

You wait to welcome me into that hidden place

There you have prepared our feast, a table of many delights.

 

The Cave

In a cave you came to us, the darkest of dens.

Home of the spider, the newt, and bat.

Not one crevice could they hide,

From the brilliance of your divinity o Son of God

Among those creeping things there you found me,

Something you should have crushed beneath your feet

Then there were those who learned from the stars,

They brought costly gifts, but this was not me.

I was lost in shame. like Gomer hidden in disgrace

Yet, like the prophet you made me yours.

You made more costly than any treasure,

You made me shine brighter than any star!

Behold, I have become the   your nativity!

Every Crumb

What have you done, what is this within me?

I am no longer the same, my members now most radiant.

I have become all-light, the city built on a Hill.

My residents all wear now the garments of luster

No more shadows found on the wall!

The funeral parlor now is a place for feasting!

The long winged bat no longer has a place to play!

You have not held back, you given me everything:

Every morsel, every crumb, every drop-you are mine.

There is not one place where you are not,

My body, the empty closet, now the wardrobe of your divinity!

 

A Foolish God

In that old trash den, in the great rubbish pile.

There I was discarded and you came to me and said,

“You are my mine, my treasure, my peril without price”

Astounded was I at this, Amazed but I could not understand.

 

What value is there in moldy bread?

What could you exchange for a broken dish?

Who sees a wilted flower and puts it into a vase?

 

They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

So, tell me when did you lose your vision?

For truly you are a foolish God for loving me.

Since you're so insistent, I give you everything I have.

 

Lord of Madness

What is this in my hidden chamber,

Once empty, now filled with precious stone.

 

Who puts all such wealth in an open pot filled holes?

What kind of banker invests when there is no return?

Who sees a sinking ship and jumps on?

 

What marvel, unmerited, and undeserved.

Is there no logic to your love?

The apostle was the greatest of sinners,

 

Clearly, I have surpassed him in my deeds.

Why give to me without reserve?

 

All of your children must be deranged,

Truly you are a Lord of Madness,

For love me so recklessly and give to me without measure

Saturday, December 21, 2024

Narrated Poetry

 I started to narrate Poetry by Saint Symeon the New Theologian on YouTube (click here for theplaylist). In addition, I am also narrating poetry in similar styles. Here are some selections by the mysterious poet known as The Deacon.

A Pentecost

                      What is this, what delight?

There was darkness, a void all around,

but now nothing but light!

Na, not from the Sun, not the flames of that great old disk, but from a flame now placed within me.

 

Its heat is within, but I am not consumed!

Like the burning bush!

Is this holy ground, should I take off my shoes.

Oh, but if you could engulf me tender flame,

leave nothing not even the ash,

only the sweet smoke of my delight in you.

 

Lord of Madness

                   What is this in my hidden chamber,

Once empty, now filled with precious stone!

 

Who puts all such wealth in an open pot filled with holes?

What kind of banker invests when there is no return?

Who sees a sinking ship and jumps on?

 

What marvel, unmerited, and undeserved.

Is there no logic to your love?

The apostle was the greatest of sinners,

 

Clearly, I have surpassed him in my deeds.

Why give to me without reserve?

 

All of your children must be deranged,

Truly you are a Lord of Madness,

For love me so recklessly and give to me without measure.

 

A Tree

You made me a tree of life,

How can this be? What is this mystery?

I still see Cronus consuming his children

His great grandfather still chipping away at Cupid’s wings

Yet, your roots are within me laughing at the face of time.

 

Oh, Styx you have become now a spring,

Charon you are now my gardener.

And you Hades your gates have been reforged,

Shears, pruners, lopper, are now your trade

All for this precious tree that you have planted in me

 

All things you have indeed made new.

The world now is mine and every part,

The good, the bad, the ugly,  all are mine.

There is not one thing that will not be used.

For this tree, this precious tree of yours.